[ heaven truly does have a way of putting them into its fun little fuckhouses of torture.
maybe, he shouldn't be surprised. after all, he saw the movement across the tea during jing yuan's expulsion, only to be proven correct in the end. a doctor knows what can heal just as much as what can harm, and will use everything in their arsenal to protect, to take care of those around them.
even their own body.
i died for the future of the xianzhou alliance. i would choose that every time, and here is no different. an insignificant life is nothing in the face of thousands.
is it so insignificant, though? ]
Hubris is the downfall of many a tyrant. They think that those they crush underfoot will never find a way to fight back - all it takes is one, single opening for it all to come crashing down. You gave your General a fighting chance, and surely one that sealed the fate of this Hoolay rather than the Xianzhou Alliance.
But I still think you should value your life more than you have. It is not so insignificant as you've made it out to be, to use it as you have.
[ you and taair are so infuriatingly similar in the worst ways, he does not say. because they are also so similar in the best of ways, for all that they are different, and that is what makes him so tremendously fond of the both of them.
their hearts are for others, until there is nothing left. ]
You and I have already had this discussion. [ about his worth, and self-sacrifice, and those left behind. ] And we will disagree for some time yet, I think, perhaps even long after you have turned a thousand years, two thousand, three.
But your presence in our lives has changed it for the better, Jiaoqiu, and not because of sacrifices you have made. I wouldn't dare to assume what she would say, but I hope she would think the same.
[ god, he doesn't ever know what to say in response to this sort of thing. it's so nice, and it's so against everything that he thinks of himself. he's too polite to not say thank you, but every time, it almost makes him uncomfortable to hear.
he's only doing what he should as a healer. it's the bare minimum, he thinks. ]
I'm sure she would say the same. [ he knows feixiao well enough. ] Thank you.
[ it doesn't feel terrible to hear, even if he doesn't much believe it. ]
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maybe, he shouldn't be surprised. after all, he saw the movement across the tea during jing yuan's expulsion, only to be proven correct in the end. a doctor knows what can heal just as much as what can harm, and will use everything in their arsenal to protect, to take care of those around them.
even their own body.
i died for the future of the xianzhou alliance. i would choose that every time, and here is no different. an insignificant life is nothing in the face of thousands.
is it so insignificant, though? ]
Hubris is the downfall of many a tyrant. They think that those they crush underfoot will never find a way to fight back - all it takes is one, single opening for it all to come crashing down. You gave your General a fighting chance, and surely one that sealed the fate of this Hoolay rather than the Xianzhou Alliance.
But I still think you should value your life more than you have. It is not so insignificant as you've made it out to be, to use it as you have.
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I believe in her more than I believe in anything. [ he says, quietly. ] General Feixiao will win.
[ he doesn't know. he died before he could hear of her victory. but - he believes it. as for the rest, he's quiet. ]
... I value my life as much as I should.
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[ you and taair are so infuriatingly similar in the worst ways, he does not say. because they are also so similar in the best of ways, for all that they are different, and that is what makes him so tremendously fond of the both of them.
their hearts are for others, until there is nothing left. ]
You and I have already had this discussion. [ about his worth, and self-sacrifice, and those left behind. ] And we will disagree for some time yet, I think, perhaps even long after you have turned a thousand years, two thousand, three.
But your presence in our lives has changed it for the better, Jiaoqiu, and not because of sacrifices you have made. I wouldn't dare to assume what she would say, but I hope she would think the same.
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he's only doing what he should as a healer. it's the bare minimum, he thinks. ]
I'm sure she would say the same. [ he knows feixiao well enough. ] Thank you.
[ it doesn't feel terrible to hear, even if he doesn't much believe it. ]